PRESENT
Happy Friday Blessings!
I was going to write about my tattoo last night. But instead
I went over to my bestie’s house. She’s
a SAHM of 3 kids and her husband made plans for the evening. I know what it’s
like to take care of household stuff AND a kid when injured but I can’t
imagine doing that with 3 kids: 2 of school age and 1 in diapers.
(my at-the-time 2 yr old thought it was funny to see mama
puking in the toilet. Do you know how hard it is to barf while laughing at your
2 yr old laughing at you?!?!)
I love my friends.
I’m very independent. I do
everything I can on my own. I don’t rely on anyone because
I’ve learned that if I rely on people they want something
in return. Or I get hurt. And that’s wrong. I use to never
let anyone help me. I had this brick wall built around me …
with a door of course! And I didn’t let anyone in unless I
asked. Earlier this year I started ‘deconstructing’
that wall because I admitted to myself that I’m ok on my own. And it’s
ok to accept people’s help. I’m
happy being single!
But I am not superwoman. No matter how hard I try. I think
my cape was stolen.
So as predicted, I got hurt. But I realized that’s
ok. Because I would do anything for my friends, even if it meant they would not
do the same for me. It’s who I am. And I refuse to
change who I am because they don’t have the same core
values as me. It’s what makes us grow as people.
Grow as friends. I learned that no matter who thinks of me as a friend or not,
I’ll always be there and help when I can for all of my
friends. And I don’t expect anything in return. It’s
who I am. And it’s ok that others in my life don’t
think that way.
Once in a while tho, during tough situations we learn who
our ‘besties’ are.
(Penny & Amy prove the meaning of besties!)
It’s those friends that don’t
judge. That accept you for who you are. That love you for your past, accept you
for your choices and want to be there for your future. They give without
wanting and accept when needed. They laugh with you and tell you if you’re
being an absurd bitch.
I’ve learned that these friends are hard to keep.
Hard to hold on to but only because I didn’t appreciate our
differences before. But it’s ok now. It took me 38 years to
learn how to be a good friend and I hope that I can be in all of my friends
life now and forever. And I hope they can be in mine. Because it’s
this single crazy life I live that I realize how important friends are.
My life is filled with awesome friends with whom I can laugh
with and hang out with. But I’m also blessed with very
few ‘besties’.
And that’s the best part of life.
